bakit parang may kulang :(

im not that numb not to feel all the changes of both of us :(
do we still have love in our heart??

hindi na ako natutuwa sayo!!

bakit ba ganyan ka?
tumatahimik na ako para wala nang dapat pag usapan pa..
akala mo na natutuwa ako sa mga birong papanakit mo pero ang totoo masakit talaga..
alam mo na realize ginagawa mo sakin yung mga bagay na alam mong ayaw ko..
kakapagod :( hindi ako natutuwa..
sa totoo lang hindi na ako masaya..
until now im doing all i can para maayos tayo..pero wala pa din eh
wag mo naman akong bigyan ng rason para tuluyang iwan ka..

pag kinikiliti mo ako..
and totoo nyan hindi ako nakikiliti..
nasasaktan ako



pag pinapahiya mo ako
hindi na lang ako kumikibo



pag kailangan ko ng encouragement.
discouragement lang ang natatanggap ko mula sayo..


PAGMAMAHAL PA BA ANG TAWAG SA MGA BAGAY NA GINAGAWA MO SA AKIN??


PAKISAGOT KASI PARANG HINDI NA EH



LARUAN NA LANG BA AKO??

nakakainis!!

ugali mo nakakabuwisit!!

ayoko na sayo!!

happy by secret stereo

para sa mga nakaraan na tao sa buhay ko at mga bagay bagay :)

mensahe sa mga taong minahal ko :)
salamat
sa pagdating sa buhay ko,sa mga natutunan ko na mga bagay bagay;)



sa totoo lang :) hindi ako masyadong playgirl :) some thought that i am a FLIRT in which they can't afford to have or to be :)
ako po'y friendly lang tapos!.

marami akong minahal at mahal na tao sa buhay ko..
some stay,some left me with tears
pero mas marami silang iniwan ko at umiyak dahil skin :)

sorry?

i know how to love ofcourse i know how it feels to be rejected too
i know how hard it is na mang iwan o iwanan :)

kaya this is for those people na untill now ay galit at nadaramdam skin :)

i know everything happened for a reason maybe hindi lang talaga tayo para sa isa't-isa pero wag niyong isipin na hindi ko kayo minahal :)


i did..

love??
its not always gonna be the reason for your smiles nor tears :)

ewan ko nga ba tayong mga tao we keep on loving kahit we all know that masasaktan tayo :)

well,at this momment im not a brokenhearted girl yet alam ko pa rin ung pakiramdam na yon..
how hard it feels..seeing yourself crying cause of a person who never worth it :)
who never desearve you..even half of your love :)


kaya ikaw,oo ikaw..kung magmamahal ka mahalin mo sa paraang alam mo :)


salamat..


joan tengco

I was lost and alone
Trying to grow making my way down that long winding road
Had no reason no rhyme
Like a song out of time
And there you were standing in front of my eyes

How could I be such a fool
To let go of love and break all the rules
Girl when you walked down that door
Left a hole in my heart
And now I know for sure

Chorus:
You're the air that I breathe
Girl you're all that I need
And I wanna thank you, lady
You're the words that I read
You're the light that I see
And your love is all that I need

I was searching in vain
Playing a game
Had no-one else but myself left to blame
You came into my world
No diamonds or pearls Just like a castle of sand
Girl, I almost let love slip right out of my hands
And just like a flower needs rain
I will stand by your side through the joy and the pain

Repeat Chorus X2

You're all that I need, girl
You're the air that I breathe, yeah
And I want to thank you
(And I want to thank you, lady)

You're the words that I read, girl
You're love is all I need, yeah
And I want to thank you
(And I want to thank you, lady)

You're all that I need, girl
You're the air that I breathe, yeah
And I want to thank you..
(Repeat to fade)

all the foods i love :)

i want you guys to know all the yummy foods for me :)

after all gaining too much for me is so worthy :) i love eating :)
chocolates
doritos :)

yummy :)

nang dahil sa FACEBOOK

FACEBOOK..
(BG music-faint of hearts)

kung saan saan mo yan maririnig sa mga schools,offices at kahit nga sa mga taong naglalakad sa kalsada at mga makakasabay sa jeep :)

malaki rin ang natulong sa akin ng site na to..


nagkaron ulit kami ng communication ng mga long lost friends ko,marami akong nakilala na hook up ako sa games such as FARMVILLE,PONZI, at kung ano ano pang laro :)

i had the chance na makachat yung mga taong hindi ko kilala but with the help of FB naging friends ko pa sila..

updated ako about the things they were doing mga bagay bagay sa buhay nila :) how i wish makita ko din yung taong hinahanap ko nang matagal nang panahon



kaya nga lang :(





dahil sa dami nang avid user ng FB minsan marami din ang nagbago :) ung CHAtbox nila minsan ang bagal bagal,newsfeed nila minsan hindi naman nakakatulong..


well, well,kahit ano ka pa mahal na mahal kita FACEBOOK :)

naiinip ako :) topic? let's talk about the haters :)

im so used to it having those people around me na naiinis or na gagalit sakin,but for some reason i can't help not to think why?? am i that mean to be hated? we can't avoid to get with those people who seems so hater..who hated almost everything they can't have :)

as i remember when i was at my highschool level.Konti lang talaga yung mga friends ko as in,ilag silang makipagfriend sakin which is at first hindi ko talaga malaman ang dahilan..i kept on thinking..


until,one day i had this so CALLED KAIBIGAN but their all oh so FAKE :) mga mabait lang sa tao pag napapakinabangan ka..
one of them said.. let's go to the place ng mga crush nila and came up with this statement"wag na natin sama si joan kasi baka mang aagaw pa " hahaha
see.. akala nila lahat ng gusto nila napupunta skin :) but then inintindi ko sila :) i let them its not that big deal with me..


how about the classmates i had :)

at first there all aloof with me na mimis interpret nila ako cause of my acts :)
the way i talk,the way i walk they all hate it..akala ko nga wala na talaga akong magiging kaibigan they all think na sobrang maarte ako,masama ugali at hindi marunong makisama :( it hurts to hear or to know that ganon yung tingin sayo ng ibang tao :) again hinyaan ko na lang sila


it's not easy being always on the lights of their eyes..yung iba para may masabi na lng eh gagawa pa ng issue na sang ka tutak hahaha..


mahirap na nakakachallenge din kasi you have to prove them na hindi ka talag ganon

hindi naman kasi ako yung tao na para mahalin lang at magustuhan eh willing magchange sa lahat laht ng bagay :) i don't really believe that :)

so sa lahat ng haters :)

hindi masamang aminin na may insecurities kayo..its so normal lahat naman ng tao ay ganon
so believe me..okay lang talaga yun :)




SA LAHAT NAMAN NG HATE AKO





its okay :) i have nothing to do with that i won't even hurt me that much cause i do know that im just being real being me im not a faker who can be as great as you want me to be :)

im so sorry

im so sorry..

after the night that we had this heart breakigng fight i realized alot of things..
it's really hard to leave those memmories behind as if i never met a guy who changed me for sort of good..
i mean it.. and im so sorry for that stupidy ive done to you..
ewan ko ba..bigla ko na lng nasabi yung mga bagay na hindi naman talaga totoo
mga bagy na nasabi ko na alam kong nasaktan kita ng todo..
lahat naman yun, yung mga bagay at gawa na nagawa ko..alam ko lahat yun mali..
hindi totoong HINDI NA KITA MAHAL i said that kasi akala yun nga talaga yung nararamdaman ko..
im so sorry kung naging manhid ka at that point..atleast nasabi mo na yung mga saloobin mo about skin and of all the things...
alam ko naman na simple lang naman hindi ba?? simple lang yung hiniling mo.ang umalis ako.
i was so dumb to let you realized na magulo nga talaga ang buhay ko...
na hindi ako karapatdapat na mahalin ng isang katulad mo..now,you started to ask, na bat nga ba ikaw pa?? mga tanong na nakakadurog ng puso
masakit sa pakiramdam at pandinig na matanong ng ganon...lahat yun naaalala ko pa hindi para isumbat sayo.dahil sa mga bagay na ganon,yun yung pagkakalam mo..
itatatak ko yun sa isip ko hindi para sa susunod na panahon ay masabi at mapaalala ko sayo.. kundi para maitama.


i do understand kung marami nang magbabago...lahat naman dumaan sa ganun diba?ok lang..masakit man
basta im so sorry.. sobra..


monthsarry. :)

i want to continue playing guitar :)

well,this is my very first post here in my new blog :) welcome welcome to me..
as i watched all the youtube videos, i was inspired to continue my passion about the guitars :) so tonight im gonna borrow the guitar of our kapit bahay :)
first song to learn is you love by alamid :)
then im gonna make a videos na lang din :)